I never considered myself a veteran in otome nor any otaku matter. In fact I always find myself only ankle deep in any fandom, and maybe knee deep in some very special fandoms. Such, even in otome and situation CDs there are some that I still steer clear from, on the grounds that I think it’s ridiculous, I find it in poor taste, I thought I don’t need it, or I’d rather use my time to listen to something else.
But I never thought that the CDs that I downloaded because I’m a paranoid cyber pack rat would come in handy at times like this.
Well, real life hasn’t been kind. In fact, it has been unkind. In fact, it has been an incredibly evil, ruthless, unforgiving and relentless torturous son of a gun. But that’s life. We do what we can, we get back up, learn from it and don’t do it again.
To put it simply I’m broke. Jobless, and pretty much broke. I just got my phone bill and I got a $50 overcharge for going over my minutes, which never happened before because I barely use my phone. It’s the 24th which means in 7 days I have to pay rent. Not to mention dental bill.
I mean there are times when you don’t want to put it to words even if you know it because you think that if you say it it will come true? Do you know that awkward moment when you realize it’s the truth anyway and you don’t want to say it because you’re in denial? That moment when even when you do your favorite things, you can’t distract yourself or run away from it?
Well I’m in that moment. And DAMN it’s not pleasant.
You know what’s worse than being broke? Being broke and alone. I miss a time when I can crawl into someone’s lap and just be comforted by the warmth while sorting everything in my head about what needs to be done.
Then I remember the CD I got from a certain forum:
Honey Bee CD Collection – Heart Aid Plus.
The two seiyuu that did this CD are Kamiya Hiroshi and Namikawa Daisuke.
So here I am, listening to a recording of a guy giving empty words targeted towards no one in particular in order to create an illusion for the listener that someone cares. The strangest thing is, it’s kind of working. GEEEEZ Stop it Kamiya, I’ll fall in love ♥（ﾉ´∀`）
But seriously, this CD is super dangerous.
Like the name implies, Heart Aid Plus is a CD full of words of encouragement and support for when you’re feeling down and out. I don’t know what kind of research they did but WOW this are all the words you need to hear at just that moment. When I first heard this CD I didn’t think anything about it. In fact I thought it was kind of ridiculous.
But when you hear it when you’re vulnerable and sad and tired like me, it’s comforting to hear words that somehow gives you hope and the feeling of being loved. I’m really done in. I mean if someone really say this to me when I’m feeling down like this I might seriously fall in love. (｡-_-｡ )人( ｡-_-｡)
It’s all really short snippets of 2-5 minutes, and it’s targeted towards a particular situation you feel yourself in.
There are 34 tracks in total. 2 – 11 is done by HiroC while 12 – 22 is done by NamiDai. 1 and 23 – 34 is done by both.
- Before you listen to Heart Aid
When everything is not going well <- I listened to this one.
When people are not acknowledging your effort
When you can’t do the things you want to do
When you’re so busy you can’t find time for yourself
When your stress and fatigue piles up
When you got soaked by the shower (You know, those times when you want to fill in the bath tub and it was set to shower by mistake and you got soaked in your clothes. Yeah, it happens)
When you slept too much and can’t sleep at night
When you can’t get the ticket for the event you want (This one is hilarious)
When you’re not doing well at work and want to quit
When you’re doing well at work and overcame your hurdles (This is kind of the epilogue)
When you feel lonely in your circle of friends
When you can’t cherish the people around you (sorry, not quite sure with the translation)
When you hate yourself because you can’t control your emotion
When you’re so tired you can’t sleep
When you’re irritated for reasons you don’t know
When they’re sold out of the sweets that you wanted
When a limited edition item got sold out in front of your eyes
When the small sparkler firework dies off
When you got muscle pain from two days ago
When your work is not going well
When you did your best studying
When you can’t get a boyfriend (LOLOLOLOLOL (*≧▽≦)ﾉｼ)))
When your friend cancelled at the last minute
When you can’t get familiar with other people (You can’t make friends)
When you’re tired from exam and job hunting (HNGGH I FEEL THE PAIN)
When you’re tired you can’t smile from the heart
When you can’t help but comparing yourself with other people
When you can’t get motivated even if you’re so busy
When it’s raining and you didn’t bring an umbrella
When you wasted your holiday doing nothing productive
When you fulfilled your target
I probably shouldn’t be saying this, but when something good happens to you and you have nobody to say to you, ‘Hey great job! You did well’ it’s kind of sad (´・ω・`)
When you cherished yourself
After you listen to Heart Aid
Phew. Well, at least writing this post has took some burden off my mind. I just need to buy ice cream and chocolate tomorrow.
Kamiya-san, pat my head too (* >ω<) 頭なでてなでて。。。